Preserving Time

If I could save time in a bottle The first thing that I’d like to do Is to save every day ‘Til eternity passes away Just to spend them with you   I used the popular lyrics as the basis for a graduation speech in high school in the 80s. (“Time in a Bottle” by ...

The Infinite and the Edge

If I had a thousand years, Lord, I would still run out of time…. As I sang the song in worship, my mind wandered, distorted the meaning, and made up extra verses: for Him, for me, for my family, for what I want to do here. But what is the magic in 90 or even ...

Protective Peace

My heart and my memories will always be there. Although there is much more to my home state of Kansas, thanks to Dorothy it is known as the tornado state. Growing up I heard many tales of them, but I don’t remember ever experiencing one. Sure, we all had basements in our midcentury ranchers and ...

The Giant

Our dog Pearl is tiny, even for a miniature dachshund. Six pounds of muscle and spine. She has assumed the role of protector of our yard, which is frequented by all sorts of unsavory characters: armadillos, chipmunks, moles, squirrels. But mostly, deer. If we start to say, “Pearl, there’s a deer…” she is at the ...

Fire and Trash

We burned most of our trash in metal barrels behind the milk shed. My older brother usually had that job, but sometimes I watched. I saw things go in recognizable. Then peering into the barrel days later, I’d find only thin, papery layers of black and silver ashes, stirring up the smell of finality with ...

Driving

Several months into my illness with absolutely no improvement, my vision and my faith began to get a little fuzzy. I didn’t reject God, but I sure was wondering why He hadn’t stepped in and saved the day. I never asked “Why Me?” but came to the point where I was often asking, “Why not?” ...

Playing It Safe

I had printed it out in decorative font and pinned it to the kitchen bulletin board months, maybe years, before my diagnosis. But it wasn’t until I stood before it, in Life Vest newly issued, counters overflowing with hospital bouquets and plants, that I began to internalize it. And it would be many months after ...

More Than Anything

As I walked through the front doors of Hobby Lobby, I saw two young girls taking pictures of each other in the floral section and soon realized they were posting to Instagram their #hobbylobbychallenge.  It’s the latest social media craze. Someone takes your pouty glamour shot framed to look like you’re in a beautiful outdoor ...