Adjusting the Font Size

13. August 2018 Blog Posts 21

A few years ago, pre-heart-failure, we took a trip to Buenos Aries, Argentina, to visit our son who was studying abroad.  Arriving with limited expectations and very little savvy, we somehow stumbled into booking a trip to Iguazu Falls.  I had never heard of it, but learned it is one of the New Seven Wonders of Nature.

 

Three times wider and 100 feet taller than Niagara, Iguazu was impressive to behold.  My husband and I both teared up seeing it. Then against the spray of the massive waterfall, a rainbow formed. The kids still remember how weird Mom and Dad were acting.”  I honestly felt like I was witnessing a flourish of God’s miraculous hand that day.  I had a glimpse of Eden.

 

But honestly, most of my life, I didn’t see God working.  I knew Him and I loved Him, but I couldn’t see that He was actually doing much in the miracle field.

 

Turns out the problem was with the observer and not with God.

 

CS Lewis said:  Miracles, in fact, are a retelling in small letters of the very same story which is written across the whole world in letters too large for some of us to see.”

 

My difficulty was with the smaller letters.  I could see God in nature and in the Resurrection, but I had trouble finding Him in my own life, or in the situations of those I love.

 

Thankfully, most doctors can see those smaller retellings.  75% of US doctors believe miracles occur today.  Let that sink in.  The people who devote their lives to saving people realize that they are not the ones doing the saving.  Something else is going on that they can’t explain scientifically.

 

I recorded in my journal after an early trip to the Cleveland Clinic:

As we sit here, I can see clearly the front entrance of the hospital.  Five lanes of cars bumper to bumper, dozens of CC employees directing traffic in the shadow of a six story parking lot.  This place is like a city unto itself.  So very many souls seeking a miracle today.     

 

Shortly after that, my appointments began. I had my first echo with the young lady who would eventually become our favorite sonographer at the Cleveland Clinic.  After she saw the test results, she prayed for a miracle to heal Mrs. Lori’s heart.”  I wiped my cheeks.  Maybe for the first time I realized the seriousness of my situation.  I’ll never forget her words because she so clearly believed two things.  One, I was desperately ill.  Two, God, and only God, could fix this.  She asked for a miracle because, with all her medical expertise and experience, she knew more than anyone, I needed one.

 

Since that day, I have beaten all the odds.  I have survived and improved beyond medical explanation.  To be clear, although my life was spared, my heart is not healed.”  I am managed extremely well with my device and meds.  But I have a disease that takes one course, and it is forward.

 

Still, something big happened here.  Our God amazed the doctors and astounded the surgeons at the best heart hospital in the nation.  There is no denying that fact.  And perhaps getting heart failure in the first place, against any rational explanation, was part of His miraculous plan.

 

Yet, even with this amazing experience, I get weary on the journey.  Day to day, it can seem that we are on our own to tread the floodwaters of our situation for as long as we can.

 

We all know that God often chooses not to intervene at times of our greatest need.  Those days when we can only perceive our circumstance through helplessness, we are perhaps experiencing it in its truest form. Seeing this world through the refraction of our human tears allows for the rainbows to take shape in our own lives.  And those rainbows are promises:  Never again will I let a storm destroy all of life.  Or all of your life.

 

Just before my heart function was initially restored, my husband and I were driving past our church building. It had been raining.   As we approached the building, we noticed a rainbow and stopped.  Then we saw the complete arc, with the church building sitting perfectly centered underneath.  I knew then that the deluge of this disease will not ruin me.  Whatever the outcome.

 

About a week later I wrote in my journal:  

I remembered today about the rainbow I photographed three days before we got the news of unexpected improvement.  I had never been able to see both ends of a rainbow that distinctly.  I feel like God was sending a message that I would one day see this journey completed. 

 

Like all of us, my uncertain voyage through the storm continues, because I am a mortal being in a fallen world. The day we saw that rainbow, just like the day we first saw Iguazu Falls, God wrote in big letters of His majesty.  He has been writing to me in a smaller font ever since.  But some days I can see that smaller font most clearly through my tears.

 

 

 

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21 thoughts on “Adjusting the Font Size”

  • 1
    Martha Halford on August 14, 2018 Reply

    So very awesome and so very thankful for you Lori. Continued prayers for you and Del.

    • 2
      Lori Ann Wood on August 14, 2018 Reply

      Love you, Martha!

  • 3
    Dell on August 14, 2018 Reply

    You keep revealing the BIG FONT and I will magnify the small font… blessed to figure out how to walk in faith with you!

  • 4
    Gary Halford on August 14, 2018 Reply

    Oh my Lori! This writing was so touching. When I see you and we hug and visit it is so easy to not even think of your Illness and your daily battle. You live with this sickness with such grace and class that those around you often forget what’s going on underneath. Today’s post was my reminder to NEVER cease my prayerful petition for continued healing and strength for you. I needed the nudge. Blessings dear friend!

    • 5
      Lori Ann Wood on August 14, 2018 Reply

      I always feel your concern and prayers, my friend. Thank you.

  • 6
    Laurie Armstrong on August 14, 2018 Reply

    Beautiful message Lori! I love your writing! You continue to inspire us all! Thank you!

    • 7
      Lori Ann Wood on August 14, 2018 Reply

      Thank you for reading, Laurie!

  • 8
    Joanne Bodner on August 14, 2018 Reply

    My goodness, Lori, is this your church with the rainbow? What a beautiful site. If this is not a symbol of God’s promise to be with us always, I don’t know what is! Thank you.

    • 9
      Lori Ann Wood on August 14, 2018 Reply

      Yes! This is the picture I wrote about in this blog entry! I’m not a photographer, but I loved the image of the building underneath.

  • 10
    Kimberly Ivy on August 14, 2018 Reply

    What a beautiful testimony Lori. I feel we all go through the uncertainty of our faith, but he is faithful to remind us.. Thank you for sharing…

  • 11
    Charlotte Melton on August 14, 2018 Reply

    Beautifully written Lori. I can so relate about seeing God’s hand in nature and birthing of a child. It always brings tears to my eyes. You and Dell continue to be in our prayers. Even though we don’t see you often, you are always in our hearts and prayers. ❤️

  • 12
    Kaitlyn Barrantes on August 14, 2018 Reply

    Your writings about your journey are a true work of art. Thank you for sharing them with us and blessing us.

  • 13
    Brad Grabs on August 14, 2018 Reply

    I love the quote by CS Lewis, and your explanation of it in your life. Thanks for all of your work in sharing your faith journey with us!

  • 14
    Barbara Crone on August 15, 2018 Reply

    I love the picture of the rainbow over the church building!
    I think you should have a print made and frame it to be displayed somewhere in our building.
    Such a fabulous reminder of God’s promise and protection!

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    Holly on August 17, 2018 Reply

    Wow! When we were at Niagara this summer, that was truly my first thought, what an amazing creation by His hands. Even prayed for YOU while there, because I knew a God who can create that wonder, can bring wonder to YOU. Love the picture, love the words spoken so meaningful. What a blessing today for you to share with us.

    • 16
      Lori Ann Wood on August 17, 2018 Reply

      Thank you, Holly. Your prayers have carried me through these last couple of years.

  • 17
    Carol willis on August 17, 2018 Reply

    Lori. Just catching up on your blog. This was very peaceful. Hope you are finding that peace everyday. Most of the time life is Never smooth sailing but a safe landing for those of us who live by faith. Love to you and Dell

    • 18
      Lori Ann Wood on August 17, 2018 Reply

      Carol, I love your visual of a safe landing even when sailing isn’t smooth!

  • 19
    Laura Bender on August 18, 2018 Reply

    Beautifully written. Prayers for you.

  • 20
    Janice Grant on August 18, 2018 Reply

    Lori…..look closely! There’s a double rainbow! What a spectacular reminder of God’s promises. Claiming His promises of healing for you, my WB friend.

  • 21
    Mendy Welch on August 20, 2018 Reply

    What a beautiful testament to our Lord ans Savior, Lori! I can completely relate to wondering what God’s up to when it seems things are at their worst. I have also been blessed with a surgeon who prayed with us before my surgery, abd rejoiced with us at the success, giving all the glory and praise to God! While it’s not any fun to face medical procedures, it seems to ease, at least my anxiety, to know that not only is God in total control, the human being performing that medical procedure also knows and believes that, and is fine with being God’s vessel. Your photo 8o the rainbow is breathtaking! Another reminder of God’s providence and loving care.

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